Books : 2014

Stephen King said :
Read, read, read.
”If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have the time to write.”
He published over 55 novels, 6 non-fictions and more than 200 short stories.
*But I only read 2 of his books - hew hew hew. 


Yeay for reading more than 40 books this year ! This is the complete book list.
I've been wanting to read more books than previous-previous years ever since after school but couldn't find the time and money to do so. This year has been a great reading year. I got money to buy books, I got books as presents, downloaded some good and free stuffs and read it on my iphone, and my colleagues shared some books and e-book :D 

Books I personally like this year:
  • Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse
  • The Hard-boiled Wonderland & the End of the World by Haruki Murakami
  • The Truth of Life by Ahmed Hulusi
  • Colourless Tsukuru Tazaki & His Years of Pilgrimage by Haruki Murakami
  • 1984 by George Orwell
  • The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
  • Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami

I realized that I used a lot of my time commuting - to read. And I read quite a number of it, but among all of that, I probably like only several and would recommend people to read them or maybe even not worth mentioning. 

So what is the main reason to my reading habit?

A friend said to me :
"I know you read a lot, but that doesn't mean what you are reading is always right".
I know. And that's why I keep on reading. So I would know from my 300 books that I've read, maybe I'll get 30 things - right and 270 things - wrong. So I would learn to differentiate and understand what can be right, what might be wrong, which possibilities that one thing that is right can turn into something that is wrong and vice versa. So I can improve my ability to see situations as a whole and take what is good and what is bad. Or learn anything, just anything at all.


If you read 10 books in your life, perhaps 9 books taught you bad things and only 1 that matter.
If you read 300 books in your life, perhaps 30 books taught you something beneficial and 270 were just rubbish.

When you read so much, you'll learn to understand that not all books are good.
But you just have to keep on reading to learn that skill.

And qualities versus quantities?
If you don't read, then you won't find the good ones, because it's subjective and based on personal preferences, so you still need to be picky and read a lot of them to find it.


Reading teaches me about reasoning, possibilities, adapting to situations, connecting the dots, understanding experiences, reaching what's inside of you and other people. It connects me to the world. 

How about you?
How many books have you read this year ? 

Movie : Tony Takitani

Tony Takitani is a short story by H.Murakami in Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman. It's one of my favorite. Most of all his short stories are very light and almost easy to forget - but I couldn't forget this one.

The truth is, I still want something from Murakami after the last book I read written by him several weeks ago. So I googled his name with films. Other than Norweigian Wood that I avoid watching, I found out about Tony Takitani and The Second Bakery Attack for short filmed-stories.

Weeks later, I got the copy and watched it.


It's a 75 minutes short movie by Jun Ichikawa (2004). Soundtrack composed entirely by Ryuichi Sakamoto. I can't forget some of the songs in the movie so I sometimes played the movie just to listen to the narration and background music. Just to fill my room with this song. T^T

Narrations and conversations are mostly short & simple, so most words are easy and familiar enough to my understanding. I love it. I love it to the point that I keep on thinking about it for several days later when I first watch it.

Something about the music makes my heart goes numb. When I listen to the song, it will feel like something cold and sad is creeping on my body slowly, picking my last happy memories into infinite silence. It makes me ask myself whether this silence is what I want to endure everyday. This is a different kind of beauty. The one that undeniably touched your heart, but also the one that you try to avoid.



PS : 
I've always wanted my silence. 
But I don't want to be sad or lonely while having my solitude tho.
So, no Tony Takitani's life for me please. 

Little Things 162 : Flu & Mini Chocolates

I'm having a really bad flu and it's been 4 awful days.
I am supposed to start ferret-sitting Minka yesterday *boss is going on a 2 weeks holiday. But because of the bad flu, she said she'll let other colleague keeps her first. I've been excited for weeks =.='

So I drink hot green teas and took Vitamin C daily, ate chicken soup, ate Panadol Soluble last night that tasted like weird isotonic drink, and drink a lot of water. Nothing works, much. 

I got this energetic-but-with-a-sick-look at the office and right when I commute home, I'll get in this semi-consciousness state where my body only walks back home and my energy to do anything else depleted to almost null. Being sick when the mind isn't ready to rest is a torture. 

Maybe I've been putting a lot of energy towards work, maybe I've been enjoying too much of my time. Maybe I need more rest. A colleague once said to me that "people spend too much working, they forgot about living". The thing is I know most of my time will be spent on having money by working - and I accepted that, so might as well find a job that I really enjoy because I know I'm going to spend a lot of the time of my life doing that. 

So when I look back on the time that passed, 
I can really tell myself that I enjoyed it and I had fun.


I also bought a big pack of mini M&M to increase my endorphin level, 
so I'll feel happy and will get well fast. 


Plant Project : Little Seedlings

Planting Journal :

While hundreds of little seedlings grow every day, there will be little deaths as well among the fragile ones. I have to accept that not every little thing can survive growing up, even in a very well-cared environment. 

I try to accept that little deaths are normal in this gardening cycle and to not be overly emotional because among all that did not survived, there are also the ones that still struggling to grow T^T


They looked so small and fragile, even watering them requires time and patient because every drop is too heavy for their thread-like-stem. So I try with spraying water and making the water flow on empty soil instead on where they are. I killed a bunch of Petunia seedlings, I'm not going to repeat that with Sweet Alyssum and Carnations T^T

Surprisingly, they grow well in a small container compared to in a big pot among hundreds of them. These are much healthier and growing faster than the first batch I that planted in a other bigger pot :

Sweet Alyssum in a very tiny green tea cup and Innershines bottle.


And Pegaga is growing up well too, look at those little babies. When I first brought it home, it got around 5 leaves, now it look like more than 10 leaves. My dad said that Pegaga and Keladi are among pet plants that easy to grow in the house with less direct sunlight. With using Zeolites, I only need to water it about once every 3-4 days. So I bought another pack of zeolites from my dad for other plants as well.  


Little Stories 84 : BBW2014

I lied.
I went to the Big Bad Wolf last week with him. When people asked, sometimes I said I did and sometimes I answered, "I haven't". This lie, I can't fully understand why. 

I did went there last weekend until midnight. I did walked through thousands of graphic novels, fictions, literature, travel and cookery sections. I did bought those Feb's Monocle and several cooking books, and Sudoku and one fiction.

I prayed for total anonymity. I hoped I won't meet anyone I know. I wanted to be invisible and free from little chit-chats. I felt like someone entirely different, I became one person that I wanted to be at that time if I can avoid judgements and expectation all-over. 

So in my head, the event felt half-real-half-imaginary.

Things I found at BBW2014 :

1. Cheaper Monocle Feb 2014 magazine, to study basic modern magazine's structure & grids, also interesting vectorized illustrations. Totally for work purpose. I read-aloud every article from front-to-back to avoid buying magazines for no strong reasons. Main topic on future cities and possible migration. RM10

2. Paris magazine, a very boring & outdated magazine on Paris just because I'll go there soon and need to do some reading. RM5

3. Little book on Prague.
I'm reading it front-to-back, can you feel this boom-bada-boom?
RM 3 = 19 Czech Koruna

4. A Dangerous Method by John Kerrs, RM 8
I want to read about Freud & Carl Jung in stories rather than academic writings, this is the closest that I found. Got the 2011 movie version by Micheal Fassbender, Keira Knightly and Viggo Mortensen.

5. Sudoku, RM 3
I just found out that my brain is super slow lately - that I took 1/2 hour for the first light & easy sudoku game. Remember the time when we played 10-mins tops sudoku? Shessh.

6. Cookery books, RM++
I need to enjoy the art of cooking and feasting.


As for my early Kismes present, I received the complete set of Inkheart trilogy from Ivy (but I pay her back because I pesan her to help me find it at the BBW premier day). She bought it at BBW for RM 25. I-am-super-excited! I haven't found this version for so long. The first time I fell in love with this children fantasy book was 10 years ago, I borrowed from Tasya back then. And I only got the third book as a Valentine present from my friend - the hard copy beautiful version. I L-O-V-E the hard copy version of Inkheart with illustrations and all.

I don't feel good to buy a complete set for RM25, but I'm not complaining.


PS : For RM35, I cut my hair shoulder-length short and saloon-washed it, very refreshing.
Like someone who's turning 28 soon. Teehee.
I love growing up